I would like to deny it; but I cannot. It is, indeed, already the end of January. How did this happen? Being an adult and doing 'grown-up'-like things has taught me one very strong point--time flies quicker as time flies by. With work, cleaning, cooking, groceries, puppy time, and repeat, I'm having a hard time realizing how to stop and smell the roses. And I don't even have any children yet! Goodness. Right now, my current struggle involves keeping Carlos from eating the cardboard box Seth's books are in and yet I feel like time is hurling forward at an unimaginable speed. Any suggestions on how to make it slow down a wee bit?
In the fast times, I have been reading through the Old Testament. Currently, I am in 2 Samuel. Yesterday I read 2 Samuel 11 where the David and Bathsheba incident happen. My main conviction while reading through the Old Testament is just how terrible my sins are even when measured against the terrible sins of the figures in the Old Testament. It is so easy for me to read about the killing, worshiping of idols, adultery, and blatant disregard for God's instructions and to think "those are terrible people; why does God love them?" And I am reminded of John 8:7 "..He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her." Now, in our walk with Christ, it is sometimes easy to feel like we are not Pharisees and adulterers; but we are worse. Christ died for our sins when all we deserve is death. Our Savior came down to shed His blood in our stead and yet we allow our sinful nature to get the best of us. What a wonderful Lord that we serve that he forgives us in spite of ourselves. For me, this makes the Old Testament a lot easier to read.
In the meantime, I have learned that I am in love with my job. In fact, the only thing I do not like about being a nurse is waking up at 5am and getting home only to eat supper, shower, and get in bed only to do it again the next day. I love all the in-between. Each day, I get to love on and help heal new patients; some of whom are very sick and some of whom are not. Either way, it is such a joy and a privilege to show some love to new people and to help them with all the terrible, inconceivable things things they cannot currently do for themselves. In fact, that is my favorite part. You see, a privilege of working in an ICU is that you take total care of your patients and it seems like my greatest days are those in which I get a chance to bathe my patients. It is so funny because I distinctly remember this and potty-help being my least favorite things about nursing school and yet now they have become my favorite. I think of what kind of attitude I would want to see in the face of the nurse who has to perform catheter care on me if ever I am in need of a catheter and I pray that I can always feel and emulate these emotions with my patients.
Seth has officially learned to fly! :) He passed his first check-ride today. It is basically a practical for flying. He did it all by himself! His instructor pilot didn't have to touch the controls at all! I'm so proud of him! And he is doing so well in his classes. Flight school sure takes up a lot of his time, but I am so blessed to have a wonderful husband like Seth. He makes dinner for me the days I am at work and always takes the time to listen when I'm having a bad day. God has given me way more than I ever deserve in the husband department. I only hope that all women I know could have someone as equally awesome as him.
Carlos is now a whopping 80 lbs. He turned eight months old yesterday! He has grown so much! I hope you all have been keeping up with him on Facebook. I feel sorry for all of my friends because I already post an obscene amount of things about my dog--imagine what it'll be like when we have kids!
Life is great! Busy, but great! God has blessed us far beyond measure and I cannot wait to see what he has in store for us next!